As Valentine’s Day approaches…
As Valentine’s Day approaches, the holiday only reminds me of my crushed American dream. When I was younger, I had the dream that I would grow up and have a home of my own along with a husband, children, and pet. Epilepsy had no part in this dream. Valentine’s Day is the holiday that reminds me that I am now single and no closer to attaining these goals then when I was 16.
For the moment, I have scaled my American dream down a bit.
- home of my own – I have done some extensive research into home ownership by observing others, and it is not always the joyful experience people want you to believe. Since I am terrible at fixing things, I think that I dodged a bullet here. I prefer calling the maintenance guy and asking them to come fix the problem.
- pet – This is just a matter of finding a pet friendly place and getting a cat.
- financial stability – Although not specifically stated, I thought I would have a job that I loved and would not have to worry about financial problems. Although I like helping students with their issues in math, my job comes with no health benefits. At the moment, it is extremely difficult getting a full-time professor position without a PhD (at least in physics & mathematics), so I have worked as an adjunct for many years. I am trying to break out of this trend and get a full-time job in higher education, which should resolve my financial stability problems.
Is there a Positive Side?
Due to Valentine’s Day, I now have a good excuse for buying large quantities of chocolate without any judgmental reactions from supermarket employees. Every now and then my mood is a little negative, but I already have a strategy to help me with my ‘financial stability’ goal. I have even met someone who got a full-time job, and their boss was completely comfortable with the fact that they had epilepsy.