Day 9 – Dear Epilepsy

 

Dear Epilepsy,

At the age of 17, I was a junior in high school making plans for my future.  I knew what I wanted to do with my life, and stubbornly refused to listen to anyone who would attempt to convince me otherwise.

However, none of my plans including me meeting you.  I convinced myself that the doctor was wrong.  I was just like the other students.  The only reason that I took the medicine was because of my mom.  She always diligently checked to see I took my medicine when I was supposed to.  Naturally, a few weeks later I had another seizure.

I’m not sure how this happened, but I had convinced myself that if I took my medicine regularly and did everything right, you would go away.  It happened for others, right?  I carried this belief into college, and managed to do well for myself.

Until a fateful summer when I tried to do too much.  I had another seizure.  It finally dawned on me that you were not going to go away.  I lost a lot of weight after that.  I wasn’t taking care of myself or going on a diet.  I got depressed and ate only enough to make sure I would stay out of the ER.  Worst of all, I didn’t tell anyone.

That was a long time ago.  Gradually I learned how to live with you, but it wasn’t an easy process.  I am not going to say that I am happy with some of the limitations that I have been forced to live with.

I will stop here for now.  I have much more to say about how you have affected my life, but I like to keep my letters brief.

D&R

What would you write in a letter to your chronic illness?

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8 thoughts on “Day 9 – Dear Epilepsy

  1. I thought about writing my w101 letter to my medical condition, but then couldn’t bear to. You wrote yours very well – I never realised that with epilepsy you have to be careful not to overdo things, so it was informative too. 🙂

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