The Terrible Combination of Anxiety, Insomnia & Epilepsy

As I have mentioned in Why I Couldn’t Finish Writing 101, I have been really stressed lately.  My caffeine intake has been higher than normal.  I was attempting to keep to a strict sleeping schedule.  I had the belief that I would be more productive if I was well rested.  This idea worked for a while.

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The Virtual Coffee Date


For day 10’s assignment on Writing 101, we are having a virtual coffee date.  Take a second to go grab your hot beverage of choice, and I will update you on what’s been going on.

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you that I have maintained my position on refusing to get a new neurologist.  I like the one that I have.  I’m going to just change my health insurance, and then I can see my neurologist.  I am probably being stubborn, but why change a system that is working?

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you that I have an appointment coming up with my primary care physician.  While it is only for a checkup, I hope there will be no bad news.  I have been getting mysterious blood blisters in my mouth, and I am a little nervous about the upcoming appointment.

If we were having coffee right now I would also tell you that the Fall semester has begun at both colleges that I teach at.  I hope for a semester free of any major seizures.  My attempt to find a full-time job in higher education did not succeed, but I did get a few interviews.  It is a positive step in the right direction.

If we were having coffee right now I would tell you about the Writing 101 class that I am in right now.  I feel like it is making me a better writer, and that I am getting into the habit of writing more.  I am only half way through the course, and can’t wait to see what lies ahead.

Day 6 – My Ideal Writing Space

My assignment for day 6 in Writing101  is called “The space to write.”  The description for the assignment is to write about our writing habits.  Sounds interesting…


I sometimes go to coffee shops when I want to write.  The desired coffee shop should be laptop friendly.  (Next paragraph explains why.)  Another good writing location for me is at my apartment.

Required Equipment

  • Wireless Internet – I am an internet junky and wifi is really important to me.
  • warm beverage – whether it is coffee, tea, or hot chocolate, I like to have something to drink.  While water will do, I prefer warm beverages.  I’m not sure why.
  • laptop – while some sketch notes on paper, I use my laptop for writing.
  • power cord – you can’t bring that laptop without the power cord.

Ideal Physical Space

The ideal physical space will allow me to use all the required equipment above.  It will also be quiet enough for reflective thought.  Isn’t it interesting how sometimes you can be in a public space and still feel alone.  My ideal physical space will not have many distractions, so I can focus on writing.

Writing Habits

Unfortunately, my writing habits are not good.  When I started this blog, I would only write when inspiration struck or something happened.  Sometimes weeks went by before my blog was updated.

As some of my writing101 and blogging101 classmates may have noticed, my blog posts tend to be a little blunt at times.  I guess that is part of my writing style.  I get to the point real fast, but that doesn’t always tell a good story.

Reader Feedback

Because of this Writing101 course, you know a little more about me and my writing habits.  In order to improve the blog, I would like to have some feedback from my readers.  What would you like me to write about in the future?

Caffeine and Seizures

Have you ever wondered about the relationship between caffeine and seizures?  I have touched on this topic in the past in blog posts such as: My Love/Hate Relationship with Coffee and When I Stopped Drinking Coffee.

I needed this reminder since I have drunk a lot of coffee lately.  I have experienced insomnia and some anxiety lately, and I’m sure the amount of coffee that I drink is not helping.  I did get down to only 2 cups of coffee a day at one time, but end-of-the-semester stress drove me to drinking more coffee.


Summer Employment

My fears that I revealed in “Coping with Stress” were realized.  The chair of my department didn’t give me a teaching assignment for the summer!  These teaching assignments were my safety net until I found full-time employment.  It is already late April, and people will be hiring for the fall semester not the summer.  If it were socially acceptable to stand on the sidewalk and scream in frustration, I would have done so.

My mind is in complete disarray.  I have a hard time focusing on anything else, but how to get a job once my current one ends.  I don’t have family in the city where I live.  I was making good strides towards eating healthy.  I am even drinking black tea instead of coffee,  (this small victory has lasted 3 days so far).  Now, I feel myself going back to the old habits of stress eating.

I am surrounded in negativity at the moment, and it is difficult for me to see any positive aspects of the situation.

My Love/Hate Relationship with Coffee

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A few weeks ago, I tried to gradually cut down on my caffeine.  I was planning on doing this by decreasing the amount by 2 cups per week.  Was this to ambitious?

How did it go?

  1. I felt ill.  I’m not sure if I got a cold or if this was some weird side effect from the caffeine withdrawal.  It felt just like the cold or flu.   I felt horrible for over a week.
  2. I felt irritable towards just about everyone, but I did my best to control myself.  There was no need to punish any innocent bystanders.
  3. The above two problems were pretty bad by themselves.  Finally, I couldn’t take it anymore and stopped.


I don’t really have a strategy now.  Some people have given me some great suggestions through this blog.   Maybe I just have to find the right time.   Maybe I just have to go ‘cold turkey’ and just stop drinking coffee.   If I take a vacation and stock up on Advil, I will eventually be fine.  Right?

Cutting Down Caffeine

I am making a second attempt to stop drinking coffee.  My first attempt didn’t turn out so well. 
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