Day 5 Chronic Illness Challenge


I had to do some soul searching to answer this question.  I was surprised to find more than a few negative emotions under the surface than I thought.

Day 5: How does being chronically ill make you feel?

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March for Science and a Solar Eclipse


In the past few weeks, my mood has turned on the dark and negative side.  I don’t know if it is the lack of sunshine (no Vitamin D3) or the political climate.  However, I am attempting to break out of my funk.  I am planning on going to a couple of events in the next few months that I am very excited about.

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My Chaotic Thanksgiving Thoughts


My thoughts this Thanksgiving are a bit chaotic.  This is my first Thanksgiving where I will not be around family or friends.  I’m not quite sure how to deal with the situation.

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Depression & the USA Election


I am so depressed over the outcome of my country’s (United States) election (not to the point where I need to start calling a suicide hotline.)  I am having serious thoughts about how this is going to affect my future.

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Breaking Out of my Routine


My mood has taken a turn for the worse lately.  It is summer, and the weather is beautiful.  I should be out enjoying all that beauty while it lasts.

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Meeting with the Ex


I met with my ex not too long ago.  He appears fine despite the fact that he is from a tropical country and sometimes gets depressed during the winter.  He now lives in a northern climate with lots of snow and less sunshine.

Our conversation was going well.  We were talking about current events.  I was talking about work, which dominates most of my life until about a week ago.  He talked about his work situation.

Apparently he met someone. She wanted to introduce him to her parents during the holidays.  Wow.   For the uninformed, meeting the parents is a big deal.

What shocked me was my lack of emotional response.  What do you do when you find out that your ex has moved on and is dating other people?  Surprisingly enough, I did not cry.  I think the reason for my lack of emotional response is due to one of the following:

  1. Maybe I have been so busy that I have not processed it emotionally.
  2. Complete denial.
  3. I have processed it, and think it is about time he moved on.
  4. A combination of all of the above.

Maybe it is about time I got a personal life of my own.  Someone I know told me all my stories involve my students.

 

 

 

Definitely not in the Christmas Spirit


Plane

It is the holiday season 2016.  I am not sure what is wrong with me.  I am definitely not in the Christmas spirit.

I don’t go out and enjoy various holiday events in my city.  I spend my time in front of my computer.  I am responding to emails from students, grading papers, and planning classes.  Most of the stories that I have to tell are about my students.

Once again I have booked my flight to see my family.  I thought I would purchase a book in anticipation of any flight delays.  Since I have flown the past couple of years, I don’t expect any problems and know what to do.

My mood is anything but joyful.  My mind is completely focused on doing what is needed to complete end-of-the-semester details before my flight leaves.  That is probably understandable, but I have not even gone Christmas shopping yet.  Simply put, I feel exhausted.